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HW:119 CW:112
GW:105 UGW:99
Height:5'5
Posted: March 15th 2012
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idk if i want to be single or not :$
Posted: March 13th 2012
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To get past my plateau.. I’m gonna binge for the next few days. lol uhm I can’t believe I’m even promoting this, but blah hopefully it will kickstart my metabolism. Wish me luck xx
Posted: March 13th 2012
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PLATEAU (?)

kay so I think I’ve reached a plateau, I never have before so I’m a little confused, and need your help! :D

Anyway for the past 3 days I’ve been doing my usual routine of negative calorie veggies/fruits in the morning, a small portion of what my mom makes at dinner and 8 cups of water.  This amounts to under 400 cals AT LEAST everyday..  The problem is I have GAINED, I am currently now at 106 lbs instead of 104 which I was at.  The only thing that I have changed is I have started jogging for 30 minutes every other day.

Could I be putting on muscle? But I highly doubt it because I’m not eating enough calories to actually make the muscle (I think)?  Or have I reached a plateau (if so how do get past it)?

Please help?!

Posted: March 10th 2012
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my dream …

to have my boobs bigger than my butt

Posted: March 10th 2012
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mom , my aunt and i went for brunch today. before going, my mom said i actually ordered a meal (not just toast) and actually ate it then she’d pay for me to get my hair highlighted afterwards. i literally order the most expensive/biggest thing on the menu, and i get 3 pancakes, 2 eggs, homefries, bacon and 2 slices of toast. i literally wasn’t hungry at all, but i knew getting my hair highlighted was worth it and i ate the whole thing (even to my disgust). we get home, and i’m like alright let’s go to the salon, in which my mom replies, “oh you seem sick you shouldn’t be around the fumes.” so basically a made-up excuse. fml, i am never eating again and it’s too late to purge.
hxcdreamer Asked:Sometimes we lose control of what we were trying so hard to have control over. From your post it sounds like you've hit that point, that it doesn't seem normal to you to eat like a healthy person. My advice to you is, seek help. You've admitted you needed it! That's the first step! :) Now talk to somebody. A counselor, your parents, anyone who can get you connected to a pro who can help you through it. I also recommend FITNESS blogs. Aim for healthy, not skinny! And it will come to you. :)

My parents won’t be supportive, as my mom & dad have both said on numerous occasions that “eating disorders don’t exist”.  And if I do talk to a counselor, my parents will get involved.. My school might even find out?  I know this is completely hypocritical, but I want to get help without people knowing.

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Posted: March 9th 2012
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help

For the past few days I’ve been thinking about recovering.  About how much I just want to get better, and be able to live my life without having to worry about how to get out of a meal, or how to drown out the sound of my stomach growling.  

Last night, I decided that I wanted to finally recover and start eating again, normally.  I planned out that I was going to get up early and make chocolate chip pancakes like I used to for my family.  Then at lunch, go out with my friends for pizza-and actually eat some.  And at dinner, actually have a good sized portion of what my mom makes.

When I got up though this morning, even though I really wanted to go make pancakes, all I went and got was water.  At lunch, when I really wanted to go out with my friends, I said my stomach hurt and I went home for the rest of the day.  When my mom just called to ask if I wanted anything special for dinner, I said all I wanted was broth because I wasn’t feeling good.  The only bad feeling I have is hunger.

I have a problem.  I need help.  I want to eat, I do, I really do.  I don’t care about my weight anymore, I just want to get control back.  I used to think having control meant being able to starve for days and refuse junk food, but having control is not letting an eating disorder rule your life.  I need someone to talk to, so please, anyone, someone to help me.

Posted: March 8th 2012
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cereal

icecream

oreos

crackers

jam & toast

mozzarella 

pizza

cinnamon rolls

cake

chocolate milk

All the food I want to binge on.  All the food that I find repulsive.

Posted: March 8th 2012
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when i think about eating, i have an anxiety attack.
tallerandthinner Asked:I'm really fed up with my eating habits lately, so I am going to stop eating anything but fruit or veggies until dinner (i have to eat a little bit of whatever my parents make) I plan to continue working out for like an hour everyday. Do you think I will see quick results? Or have any other advice? thanks :)) I appreciate it xx

Yes you definitely will.

You are doing everything I’ve been doing, plus adding an hour of working out.  Good luck, let me know how it works out for you! 

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alliwnt Asked:So...where are you from?

Ontario, Canada

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Posted: March 8th 2012
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ask me anything.. bored and at home with the flu.
Anonymous Asked:i am way jealous of your stomach. i wish i could weigh 104. your legs could maybe be thinner. but that's all i see. soooo maybe....98?

I agree.. that’s the one part of my body I like, my stomach.  But ALWAYS my thighs have been huge. I think 98 *hopefully* will slim them down<3

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this is me at 104lbs (give or take a few).. what would be a good gw? 
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Posted: March 6th 2012
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I’m sick. I need help.